Barcelonaaaa

 
HELLOOO or should I say Hola~


So Barcelona was an interesting trip..I probably took alot more away from that holiday than anyone else that went.

First of all my anxiety when it comes to travelling is out of this world!


To top that off my girl cancelled last minute due to a shoot she had that conflicted with the holiday! argh!!
So now I was faced with not only the anxiety of not knowing anyone other than the birthday girl when I get there but now the anxiey of having to fly alone!

A view of the mountains from the Aeroplane (Airplane?)

Love these btw! Got a set of 3 for £76 on ebay! Backpack is from Topshop

The flight went well, and I waited for everyone to arrive at the airport so that I didn't have the whole cab fare alone to pay, plus I'm in a foreign country alone and had no idea if they would allow me to check into the hotel without Sab. I didn't really even trust that I could get myself there in one piece. So I ended up waiting for 3 hours.. -__- and to make matters worse, We realised after all this time spent looking for each other, we had landed on different terminals which were about 15 minutes apart!

I finally met everyone and to my relief they were all very friendly, so the first night was great we ate and went out for drinks at a club called Jamboree (highly recommend btw).
As a Pescatarian it was near enough impossible to enjoy myself freely out there plus everything was so expensive! I saw a burger out there for €14! It was mostly Margarita pizzas for me..

The view from our Villa

You can see part 1 of the video here: 

I did want to sight-see, next time I will make sure I get to visit the things I wanted to see! I studied Gaudi in college so would be great to see his work in person. But! That will be for next time..

Our Villa was up in the Mountains in the middle of no where literally, So the only form of transport was for us to take a taxi everywhere it would have been impossible to walk it -__-" So that's where most of our money went to be honest. .

This holiday came about as I just got made redundant from work, So this holiday was more than needed I'm so glad I got it booked up when I was still working. Once my girl dropped out I really wanted to cancel but something told me to just go with it, I took my bible with me and I'm glad I did I was able to take a time out and just meditate on the word alone with no distractions.

It hit me as I sat on the beach on the last day before flying. To stop worrying, stop over-thinking,  accept the things we can't control and most importantly to trust in the journey.
I believe this all happened for a reason, So I've learnt to let go and let God show me. It has not been easy at all.

I learnt to control my anxiety on a different level. Anxiety is like worrying over lots and lots of what-ifs inside of your head without anything actually happening yet? That's the best way I can describe suffering with such an annoying problem because it can get you worked up in such a state!

I CAN do things alone. I don't always need someone with me JUST incase of anything. I built a new found confidence within myself, all the worries and doubts I had about even just trusting myself and that I was going to be ok..
I feel much more confident with myself in terms of trusting I've got my own back, it's like a new level of independence and it's influenced my decision to become self employed and focus on this next journey. I've never been someone who can sit still in a 9-5 it's time to trust the reason why, I'm simply not built for the robotic life. No more half hearted-ness, doubts and fear to get in my way. If I'm going to do this I'm doing it so that I can look back and at least know I gave it 100%.

So Barcelona marked the beginning of this new journey for me and I am more than grateful for the experience I've taken away from it.